Tuesday, July 26, 2016

The Tomato Man

Random post...but one that I love because I love the people who inspired it. We had the privilege of living in southeast Arkansas with many who farm for a living, and many who live to grow things--including, I must say, a young couple with young children who needed some fertilizer and pruning.
So, in honor of all those who taught me about the land, and who shared their lives and their harvest...

The Tomato Man

            The tomato man walked through his garden rows.  He looked like a scarecrow stuffed with too many twigs and not enough straw -- sharply angled in all the bending places.  He was as tall as the cornstalks that touched the sky and as skinny as the bamboo bean poles.  His eyes twinkled in the hat shade on his face.  His hands moved as he walked through the garden -- touching, pinching, lifting, brushing --  working magic in his garden.
            In the early spring, as birds relearned their songs and warm air pushed the winter back into memory, the tomato man began to work.  A giant red and black mechanical beast, hidden all winter in a metal cage, roared to life at the touch of the tomato man’s hands.   Earthworms hid deep in the ground, birds sat silently in the trees, and children watched with wide eyes while the tiller beast and the tomato man worked.  The beast’s steel teeth bit into the dirt, chewed it up and spit it out.  Hard dirt that refused to form footprints disappeared into the teeth of that tiller beast and reappeared -- a soft cushion for the tomato man’s feet.  The dirt was cool to the children’s touch.  Rich brown earth squished between bare foot toes, hiding itself under fingernails and behind ears.  The garden smelled of sun and showers and summer.  The tomato man’s magic had begun. 


            The tomato man left the tiller beast silent and still, but the tomato man continued to work.  Brown paper sacks rattled in the breeze, their heavy contents anchoring them firmly to the ground.  The children peeked into the sacks and found treasure beyond imagining.  There were corn seeds like the teeth of golden giants, and smooth round pea seeds that looked like mother’s pearls.  Black-eyed pea seeds stared with dark Cyclopean eyes.  Teeny tiny spinach seeds, so small it was hard to pick them up alone, lay next to huge butter bean seeds.  The children carefully carried the treasured seeds and followed the tomato man up and down and around the garden rows.
            Bean seeds circled teepees of bamboo.  Squash seed stood on hills of earth.  Corn and peas lined up in soldier straight rows.  The rich brown earth covered the seeds, blanketing them in warmth and moisture and safety.  The garden smelled of pastures and perspiration and promises.  The tomato man’s magic continued.
            Now, the brown paper seed sacks blew around empty and the tomato man worked even harder.  Children holding plastic jugs marched to places of honor.  Behind the children came the tomato man ... and the tomatoes.  Green leaves fluttered with excitement as hole houses were dug for each plant.  Cramped white roots stretched into comfort beneath the soil and the tomato man’s hands made sure each plant was straight and secure.  White milk jug castles covered the tomatoes, protecting them from the cold night air and the plentiful green bugs that thought those baby tomato plants were lunch.  The rich brown earth fed the plants, giving them a home.  The garden smelled of green and growth and goodness.  The tomato man’s magic waited.
            For one day… and then two... the tomato man didn’t work.  The children and the tomato man sat by the garden.  They chewed sprigs of grass and watched clouds make pictures in the blue sky.  The garden didn’t change, but the magic was there.  For three days and four and five, the tomato man watched with the children.  For six and for seven and for eight and for nine, the children waited with the tomato man.  And then...
            The tomato man laughed.  From under the soldier straight rows saluted tiny green shoots.  On the squash hills and under the bamboo teepees peeked peewee sized plants.  And the tomatoes outgrew their castles, their strong arms crawling beyond the plastic turrets to touch the sky.  The tomato man’s magic could be seen.
            Weeks passed while the tomato man worked again: walking the garden rows --
touching, pinching, lifting, brushing.  And at the end of the summer, the tomato man’s garden magic was complete.  Leafy tents were covered with waxy green beans, reaching down toward the children’s hands, waiting to be picked.  Bright yellow and green squash rested on earth mounds.  Rows of tall sweet corn and bushes of black-eyed peas rustled as the children walked by, whispering a welcome.  And, brilliant red tomatoes in wire cages begged children to take them home.
            The tomato man had worked his magic in the tilling and the planting and the watching of the garden.  He had worked his magic in the weeding and the feeding and the picking of the produce.  But the tomato man’s most important magic came after all that. 
            The tomato man took the beans and the squash and the corn and the peas and especially the tomatoes and the tomato man gave them away.  The children had all they wanted.  Their parents ate until they were full.  The grocer and the preacher and the neighbors received garden gifts.  The tomato man’s most important magic -- the magic that made the tomato man’s garden different from regular gardens -- was the sharing.

            The children loved the tomato man and they understood his magic.  And so, every year, just like the tomato man, the children -- and their children -- and their children -- will walk through their garden rows: touching, pinching, lifting, brushing -- and sharing, always sharing the magic of the tomato man’s garden.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

I Wish...

I wish you knew "church" like I know church.

I wish you didn't think about the funeral scene in the first season of House of Cards where the minister turns the service over to the politician and the choir is "gospelly," and every seat in the house is filled, shoulder to shoulder, with blacks and whites sitting together there in the heart of Georgia.

We're not that good.

I wish you didn't think about the TV pastors who show up after tragedy and offer platitudes to whoever for whatever.

We're not that bad.

I wish you didn't think about the mega church pastors who promise health, wealth, or special heaven status while taking your money and flying in personal jets and living in mansions.

We're not those people.

We're just people here at my church. All kinds. All places in our faith development. All abilities. All shapes and sizes and genders and political stripes. And I wish you would see this little miracle we call community that calls together such diverse folks. We work hard to stay connected. It's not easy.

I wish so many things.

I wish we were better at telling you why faith is so important to us.

I wish you were better at hearing us without assuming we are who we are not.

I wish you knew the brokenness that comes through the doors on a Sunday. I wish you knew the fear. I wish you could see the ache that emanates from hearts that have lost husbands or wives, parents or children to death. I wish you could shake hands with the woman who insists everything is fine when you know it is not.

I wish you knew the joy that comes from knowing you have "peeps" who would do anything for you, anytime, anywhere. They can't solve your problems...they know that and so do you...but they will stand beside you, sit with you, hold your hand and never let go.

Until you need them to let go...then they will. But they are there. And they will celebrate as you become the hand holder, praying and holding you in their hearts instead.

I wish you knew the unceasing work and prayer and thought that happens as people seek to do good in the world. I wish you knew how important it was to so many that all people be included and supported, and have the opportunity to be healthy and thrive.

I wish you understood that as one restaurant doesn't make every restaurant bad, one church doesn't make every church bad.

I wish I knew how to meet you and have a conversation with you about the world I want to live in. I wish I could help you understand that the foundation of that world view is our worth coming from God's love for us...and our call being to love others (working for their welfare over our own) as we have been loved by God. This makes us equal in God's sight, each worthy of the other, each deserving because of who God is, not who we are.

I wish we could be a lot more connected, know what to do with our anger, work together instead of fighting each other to change the world.

I wish...

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Easter Evangelism

Back to the thoughts on sharing the good news of the gospel. Cough, cough, ahem....

Great sermon here by Brian Blount, president of Union Presbyterian Seminary. One of his points is that the players in the Revelation text had seen "the end." They knew our hope. They refused to live in the lie that evil is in charge, that bad people will win in the end. Because of that, their "witness" to the reality makes a difference in their here and now.

Evangelism is not about going to heaven after this life. It is about living this life in a way that brings heaven to our here and now. That means living in community that puts the other's good ahead of our own, that works for shalom, the health and wholeness of all people.

I hear so many say "it's not about church." And it's not. I hear "Don't go to church, be the church." and we should. My question is, "How do I do that without community, without people who explore with me what "being the church" means, without people to hold me accountable? This definition of Christian community is a far cry from show up at church to be "filled" for the next week or comforted or to pretend everything is fine and then return home to our broken lives and struggle for another week.

The understanding of "church" that we have is far from the understanding of community that Jesus had. It is far from "early church." In some ways, it should be. We are different people than first century Christians. We live differently, we face different "evils."

So why "church?" One reason (and there are more than one) is we can't do this alone. God works. We work with God. But how do we live differently if we simply live solitary, "private" lives? How do we live as disciples, stay on track, stay focused on God if we are trying to do everything ourselves?

It's called the "body" for a reason. We don't function well alone.

We won't function well if we are not living in community with Jesus as the head of our body, if we are simply meeting our own needs of the needs of the institution, if we are not living in a way that shows the world that we have seen a different way, a better way.

We won't be sharing the "good news" if we are simply living the same way the culture does inside a place called "church."

We have work to do...

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Faithful Pathways: Easter

"The Lord's unfailing love and mercy never cease, fresh as the morning and sure as the sunrise." (Lam. 3:22-23)

You have to wonder if the women walking to the tomb on this morning thought about that promise, wondered how they would see unfailing love and mercy in a situation like this, let their grief spill over in tears as they made their way to anoint the body. The morning was fresh, the sun was rising, but I'm not sure they trusted at that moment in all the things they had been taught.

Read John's resurrection story here. The level of activity from disciples horrified that the tomb was open, that the body was gone...well, let's just say the frenetic pace of Easter services may have begun right there. But the question that haunts is "Why do you seek the living among the dead?"

Easter resurrection is not a ticket to heaven. It is not a place set far above other humans who are not "in."  It's an opportunity for life together that places our hope in the unfailing love and mercy of God. That gives us the ability to live in this new community, people who are united in Christ, not in their political views or wealth or skin color or gender.

It is a lifetime journey to learn to stop seeking the living among the dead. But when we manage, through God's grace, to turn our eyes and hearts from what we expect and look at what can be, then we know "God's love and mercy never cease, fresh as the morning and sure as the sunrise."

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Faithful Pathways: Sovereignty

Today's passage begins "Who can command and have it done, if the Lord has not ordained it?"

It's a hard one for us to think there is consequence to our action, especially our bad actions. We love grace, forgiveness. Consequence, not so much. Blaming God or others is much more satisfying than blaming ourselves.

"Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the Lord."

"Where is grace in these verses?" we demand. "There's always grace." Indeed, there is. But grace--God loving us because God loves us--is not permissiveness. We cannot use God's love to get our own way or do whatever we want because we belong to God.

The darkness of Holy Saturday is a result of our sin. God came wrapped in human skin. We killed him.

There is consequence for that. There is consequence for oppressing the poor. There is consequence for refusing to love our neighbor. There is consequence for preferring fear over relationship. There is consequence for the worship of consumerism, for the abuse of the earth, for the assumption that we can be our own gods.

The darkness is our creation. It is our consequence. It is not "their fault."

Today is a day for "lifting our hearts as well as our hands to God in heaven..."

The book of Lamentation is a poem based on the Hebrew alphabet. Grief has a beginning and an end. The end is coming. "[God] has taken up our cause...redeemed our lives." Grief will end. Hope will return.

But today is for eyes flowing without ceasing.


Lamentations 3:37-58New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

37 Who can command and have it done,
    if the Lord has not ordained it?
38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High
    that good and bad come?
39 Why should any who draw breath complain
    about the punishment of their sins?
40 Let us test and examine our ways,
    and return to the Lord.
41 Let us lift up our hearts as well as our hands
    to God in heaven.
42 We have transgressed and rebelled,
    and you have not forgiven.
43 You have wrapped yourself with anger and pursued us,
    killing without pity;
44 you have wrapped yourself with a cloud
    so that no prayer can pass through.
45 You have made us filth and rubbish
    among the peoples.
46 All our enemies
    have opened their mouths against us;
47 panic and pitfall have come upon us,
    devastation and destruction.
48 My eyes flow with rivers of tears
    because of the destruction of my people.
49 My eyes will flow without ceasing,
    without respite,
50 until the Lord from heaven
    looks down and sees.
51 My eyes cause me grief
    at the fate of all the young women in my city.
52 Those who were my enemies without cause
    have hunted me like a bird;
53 they flung me alive into a pit
    and hurled stones on me;
54 water closed over my head;
    I said, “I am lost.”
55 I called on your name, O Lord,
    from the depths of the pit;
56 you heard my plea, “Do not close your ear
    to my cry for help, but give me relief!”
57 You came near when I called on you;
    you said, “Do not fear!”
58 You have taken up my cause, O Lord,
    you have redeemed my life.

Friday, March 25, 2016

Faithful Pathways: Unceasing

It's a different conversation than we usually hear when Americans are in this kind of grief. God gets blamed...then rejected. "I hate God" or "I can't believe in a God that would allow this" or some iteration of the two.

In the absolute worst kind of grief, "He has walled me about so that I cannot escape; he has put heavy chains on me; though I call and cry for help, he shuts out my prayer; he has blocked my ways with hewn stones, he has made my paths crooked." In that kind of grief, we get this reply...
The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul that seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. It is good for one to bear the yoke in youth, to sit alone in silence when the Lord has imposed it, to put one's mouth to the dust (there may yet be hope), to give one's cheek to the smiter, and be filled with the insults.

But we get it after the recognition that...
This I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. "The LORD is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in him.
It is good to be humbled after we have been so wrong. It is good to be reminded of the faithful path we should be on. It is good to be reminded that we are not God. It is God's correction that will heal us.

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases...a different kind of prayer.

The only kind of hope.

God’s Steadfast Love Endures

I am one who has seen affliction
    under the rod of God’s[a] wrath;
he has driven and brought me
    into darkness without any light;
against me alone he turns his hand,
    again and again, all day long.
He has made my flesh and my skin waste away,
    and broken my bones;
he has besieged and enveloped me
    with bitterness and tribulation;
he has made me sit in darkness
    like the dead of long ago.
He has walled me about so that I cannot escape;
    he has put heavy chains on me;
though I call and cry for help,
    he shuts out my prayer;
he has blocked my ways with hewn stones,
    he has made my paths crooked...
19 The thought of my affliction and my homelessness
    is wormwood and gall!
20 My soul continually thinks of it
    and is bowed down within me.
21 But this I call to mind,
    and therefore I have hope:
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,[a]
    his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.
24 “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
    “therefore I will hope in him.”
25 The Lord is good to those who wait for him,
    to the soul that seeks him.
26 It is good that one should wait quietly
    for the salvation of the Lord.
27 It is good for one to bear
    the yoke in youth,
28 to sit alone in silence
    when the Lord has imposed it,
29 to put one’s mouth to the dust
    (there may yet be hope),
30 to give one’s cheek to the smiter,
    and be filled with insults.
31 For the Lord will not
    reject forever.
32 Although he causes grief, he will have compassion
    according to the abundance of his steadfast love;
33 for he does not willingly afflict
    or grieve anyone.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Faithful Pathways: Cry

Another bombing. More laws set in place to discriminate against God's children. The spoken solution from a front-runner for president that we should embrace water-boarding, because "they"kill, we should torture. Families whose children have been accepted to college face the real heartache of not being able to pay the bill. Another bombing. Another shooting.

How do people of faith deal with the grief that overwhelms? What response is acceptable when hope seems completely out of reach and our ability to effect is roughly equivalent to the ability to pick up our car?

Cry.

"Cry aloud to the Lord! Oh Lord of daughter Zion! Let tears stream down like a torrent day and night! Give yourself no rest, your eyes no respite!"

There are times that is all you can do.

But crying to the Lord has accomplished great things. In the darkness that gathers for us this weekend, tears might be our greatest offering.

Lamentations 2:10-18New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

10 The elders of daughter Zion
    sit on the ground in silence;
they have thrown dust on their heads
    and put on sackcloth;
the young girls of Jerusalem
    have bowed their heads to the ground.
11 My eyes are spent with weeping;
    my stomach churns;
my bile is poured out on the ground
    because of the destruction of my people,
because infants and babes faint
    in the streets of the city.
12 They cry to their mothers,
    “Where is bread and wine?”
as they faint like the wounded
    in the streets of the city,
as their life is poured out
    on their mothers’ bosom.
13 What can I say for you, to what compare you,
    O daughter Jerusalem?
To what can I liken you, that I may comfort you,
    O virgin daughter Zion?
For vast as the sea is your ruin;
    who can heal you?
14 Your prophets have seen for you
    false and deceptive visions;
they have not exposed your iniquity
    to restore your fortunes,
but have seen oracles for you
    that are false and misleading.
15 All who pass along the way
    clap their hands at you;
they hiss and wag their heads
    at daughter Jerusalem;
“Is this the city that was called
    the perfection of beauty,
    the joy of all the earth?”
16 All your enemies
    open their mouths against you;
they hiss, they gnash their teeth,
    they cry: “We have devoured her!
Ah, this is the day we longed for;
    at last we have seen it!”
17 The Lord has done what he purposed,
    he has carried out his threat;
as he ordained long ago,
    he has demolished without pity;
he has made the enemy rejoice over you,
    and exalted the might of your foes.
18 Cry aloud[a] to the Lord!
    O wall of daughter Zion!
Let tears stream down like a torrent
    day and night!
Give yourself no rest,
    your eyes no respite!




Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Faithful Pathways: All God

In a time in which God is seen as the ultimate therapist, the consummate helper, the slot machine that fixes problems when you insert your prayer, in a time like this, we can't even fathom that God would do the things listed in this text. 

A God who would punish? Unthinkable. If we believe God might hold us accountable, we might have to actually live as God's people. But a consequence of bad behavior teaches. And in the grief of destruction, looking at God's hand in the mix is a comfort to me. It reminds me that no tragedy is outside of God's power. No place is too dark. No sadness is without God. 

If God is only a nice guy, a give-us-what-we-want-instead-of-what-we-need pushover, then how does God handle the worst grief ever. I remember being with my kids when they suffered the consequences of poor decisions.  I couldn't make it better, but we were together, tightly bound in grief until life got better, until light began to shine a bit in the darkness.  

God's greatness demands our humility. God nice all the time allows us to think we control God. We don't do well with that...playing God just tends to dig us in deeper. 

I prefer all God...all the time. 




Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Faithful Pathways: Humility

Today's reading catches me in a couple of ways. First, all the things the author thinks should be trusted, should be comforting, should be dependable--all have failed. Lovers, priests, elders...nothing can be counted on.

The other thing that catches me is the full acceptance the author has of fault. "The Lord is in the right, for I have rebelled against his word...See, O LORD, how distressed I am; my stomach churns, my heart is wrung within me, because I have been very rebellious."

I spend a lot of time reading the papers or listening to the news and feeling distressed, stomach churning, heart wrenched. But how much I blame my rebellion and how much I point blame on others is very different.

The author wants God to bring judgment on their evil the same as God has on his/hers. I want that too, only without full judgment of my own rebelliousness.

Perhaps that is the humility missing in so much of our talk of moral failures. Our practices are exempt instead of foundational.

Food for thought...though not food anyone would really want to eat...

Lamentations 1:17-22New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

17 Zion stretches out her hands,
    but there is no one to comfort her;
the Lord has commanded against Jacob
    that his neighbors should become his foes;
Jerusalem has become
    a filthy thing among them.
18 The Lord is in the right,
    for I have rebelled against his word;
but hear, all you peoples,
    and behold my suffering;
my young women and young men
    have gone into captivity.
19 I called to my lovers
    but they deceived me;
my priests and elders
    perished in the city
while seeking food
    to revive their strength.
20 See, O Lord, how distressed I am;
    my stomach churns,
my heart is wrung within me,
    because I have been very rebellious.
In the street the sword bereaves;
    in the house it is like death.
21 They heard how I was groaning,
    with no one to comfort me.
All my enemies heard of my trouble;
    they are glad that you have done it.
Bring on the day you have announced,
    and let them be as I am.
22 Let all their evil doing come before you;
    and deal with them
as you have dealt with me
    because of all my transgressions;
for my groans are many
    and my heart is faint.